everyday is a new day...people live everyday wif a new episode....but i juz cant seem to 4get the past....i juz hate tis feelin of alwayz being alone....and im alwayz alone....dun seem to feel like talkin abt thing...and i juz miz her alotz...feel like cryin whenever she call me up...The truth i cant get over her....she is like ma eveythng..omg...i hate maself....not shuttin ma world.....but juz dun wan to see the world...too scared i gues......im not a person who i use to be.....
it seem tat i maself say tat i change alot......not to the better but to worst i guess.......juz feel like ma life is crush by a bulldozer......fcuk....i damn piss off wif maself.....oni had maself to hate me......i dun think im goin to be a joker tat i use to be be4......itz not tat i wan to lead ma life tis way...but i juz cant seem to get along wif world tat much......
matbe itz not a thing 4 me again........to complicated to even think of it again....damn,.....why does it have to be like tis........no more past time......juz a thing i do everyday again and again....work3 and work......im oni 17....cmon....i ought to have a better life sia......more of partyin life...maybe.......but instead...im like a person who already had 3 child......workin so had but never rich......hahahax......wat a life...???
can ma life be better than tis..?????yes..????NO....!!!!
i dun think so.....itz gonna be like tis......no one to spent ma time wif.....no special person i mean.....cmon.....u dun wan to lead a life like mine...soo......nbetter cherish the gud life tat u had.....the oni advice i had....
if oni i can turn back time...i will do so...i wan to be happy again...i really do......i dun noe if i even noe the true meaning of happy animore........people dun noe tat i could fel sad....they juz tot tat i live life so hapy-go-luky...too bad i dun...now u noe how much im sufferin now........so hurt inside......but not red blood....itz black......black blood.......black life........black everything........
shit...do i think to much...???mayb i guess....hahax...i think too much abt gettin a gud life...mayb money is not everything....$$$$$ never ever fail to put a smile on sumones face tat is sooooooo true.......hahahax.......
Audrey u are far by eyes..but alwayz in ma heart....a fragile heart tat is tryin itz bez not to break....sob2.....as im typin tis im cryin....i juz cant control maself animore.....im so weak.....weaker than expected......u have the looks.....u can get the guyz so juz get over me and get on wif life......dun ever2 think of gettin back wif me again....i dun wan u to lead a painful life im leadin now.........and Audrey.....i still love u....u noe.....(u dun noe,i did not tell u).....u tot 4getin u was easy as abc.....too bad itz not easy 4 me......u are the one tat i wan....i got u....but itz wasted away by some hatred.......haiz...tatz all 4 now.......
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